Day 16

I went on a road trip with my family to New England last week.

It was stressful and not full of sleep.

My adrenal gland is fatigued and what it needs is sleep, little stress and good food. All three of those things were a miss for a few days and it has taken me a few days to get back in the game. The problem is that when a person has adrenal fatigue, when they don't take care of themselves then the problem is exacerbated and the person starts to CRAVE the things that will make the problem worse. It is a crazy process that maybe I'll write about one day. Anyway, we had a good trip.

It is good to be back and get back to focusing on what I need to do.

My weekly goal is to not eat 2nds at dinner time. This is hard, but I know I can do it for one week. One week is all that I'm asking myself - gentle.

Also, I like to pick a bigger goal and see how long of a streak I can go on. this streak is one that I struggle with, but I know if I break the cycle of grazing and eating for emotional reasons, I will be the person I want to be.

You cannot be your best self if you are overweight. You cannot fully love yourself if you are damaging yourself. That is not love; that is abuse. You will be happy with who you are when you are doing what you know you need to do. The trick, is that you need to be gentle and have compassion for yourself in the process. When people are down on me, I don't want to perform for them and if I do, just to prove them wrong, I eventually burn out because it is not possible to be in a negative environment for too long and not let it get to me. When people are supportive and believe in me, I want to show them what I can do. This is the same with ourselves. We can beat ourselves up and tell ourselves how fat we are, but that will only work for awhile - if at all. If we show compassion then we start to love ourselves. We start to want to help ourselves with healthy exercise and food. It makes us feel even better and it is a chain reaction. Don't believe me? Try it. Try it for a week to change your mind set from negative to accepting and feel the change begin.

Self-compassion

To get your body to where you want it to be you need to be happy with where your body is.  Contradiction.  Yet full of truth.  This is my focus.  Being happy with me.  That is when the weight comes off, when the focus is not on losing, but loving.

Reward Goals

Weekly Goal - One serving of Dinner
Points - Score 64 or 65 points Small Family Wellness Program
Streak - Fats/Protein every meal (can add fruit or whole grains).  Dinner is one serving of whatever.
Weigh only every 40 days.

One day at a time. Just this day I will give myself a gift. For just this day I will follow my dreams.

Day 4 - 40 Day Challenge

It is the toddlers that dare to fall that learn to walk the quickest. It is the ones that when they fall, they get back up. They try again.

My youngest son tried to climb out of his crib when he was about the age of my other boys when they decided to climb out of their crib. Unfortunately, something went wrong.  He ended up jack-knifed on the edge of the crib. His upper half was hanging out of the crib and his arms were out in a V grasping onto two slats. His arms were keeping him from flipping out while his legs dangled on the other side. He was screaming when I came into his room. He was terrified. It was as though he was certain that death was waiting at the end of the fall. Since that event, he does not dare to climb out of his crib. For me this is nice because I don't have to buy a new bed yet and he is perfectly contained in that little bed of his. He is almost 3 and because of a near fall, he hasn't tried again.


I think there are two main things to learn from this story. 1. If we try something and it was scary and it didn't work, doesn't mean that that will be the outcome again. I'm certain if he flipped his long leg up onto the bars, he could easily navigate the climb. He is a good climber.
2. I think of how scared he was of falling. Truth is that if he had fallen, he wouldn't have been too hurt, if at all. Sometimes we imagine what will happen if we fail. Most of the time our imaginations are too good and the truth is that it really won't be that big of a deal. The fall usually isn't as large as we thought.

“Tell me it can’t be done and I’ll do it. Tell me a goal is too high and I will reach it. Place an obstacle in front of me and I will leap over it. Challenge me, dare me, or even defy me but do not underestimate me.” Author Unknown I found it on smilewithyourheart.com

I love this quote because it shows spunk and confidence. These are two things that often get stomped out of a person as the years wear on. Don’t let them go. DARE to try. DARE to fail.

I heard a championship fighter said, “Fighters get up, no matter what.” Believe you are a fighter. Fighters always get up. You’ve been knocked down by life. I get that. Believe it or not, we all have. You are not unique in that arena, my friend. Life does that – to EVERYONE. Get back up. Shed a tear or two, but get back up. You are a fighter. I know you are a fighter because you are here. You made it to this earth. You fought the war in heaven. You won and now you have the most important match to fight of your life. Get back up. Stare your problem in the face and FIGHT.

“Fighters get up – NO MATTER WHAT.”

It doesn’t matter what your excuse is because I guarantee you that there is someone out there with the same excuse that you have, but the difference is that they got back up. They started fighting again, and they are rising above.

My favorite quote is one I used to repeat to myself again and again in high school.

“The person who thinks something is impossible, is interrupted by the person doing it.” I believe this.

Whatever your excuse is, let it go. Set your sights high. ALLOW yourself to rise up. You can do it. You have divinity within you. It starts with a dream. Start dreaming and then become.

Happiness. Enthusiasm. Optimism.

4 Month and 1 Year Goals

In 4 months (July 13th)
I weigh 138 pounds.
I have a habit of only eating one serving.
I eat every two hours during the day.
I do yoga/weights 4hrs and 40 mins a week.
I do cardio 4 hrs and 40 minutes a week.
I am productive and stick to my schedule.
I go on a date with Glenn every week.
I go to the temple every month.
I have my yoga certification.

In 1 year (March 13th, 2012)
I maintain my weight.
I run, cross-country ski, ice skate or snow shoe 3-4xs a week.
I eat organic produce.
I eat healthy meat.
I eat fish every week.
I eat raw dairy, milk, kefir, yogurt, cheese.
I eat farm eggs.
I eat sweets and savor it.
I play the cello.
I couple dance with Glenn twice a month.
I am good at yoga and practice daily.
I swim 2xs a week in a saline pool.
I have great friends and socialize with them weekly.
I support my my oldest two kids in 2 activities each.
Glenn and I go on a date every week.
I participate in as many races as I can.
I can do a handstand.

This is a picture of my family almost three years ago. We have come a long way. I remained that weight for about two years and this last year I have lost 20 pounds and this next year I plan on loosing the last 15.

40 Day Challenge - March 13th - April 21st

Join me. In the next 40 days I'm going to morph. I'm dreaming big. If I get only part of my goals, that's okay because that means that I shot for the stars.

If you can't dream it, then you can't become it.

I think that we have so much more ability, capacity and potential than we let ourselves believe.

Here are the things I hope to accomplish in the next 40 days.

I will eat one serving of dinner. 40x
I will eat 5 fruits and veggies. 40x
I will get my yoga certification.
I will earn 68 points in my family wellness competition.
I will weigh 148.
I will eat divine yummies. 6x
I will eat whole foods including a protein and healthy fat 6xs a day. 40x

Some of these will be really hard for me. But it is 40 days. I can do 40 days.

Introduction

Life is great!  Sometimes it is hard to remember that when I loose sight of the finish line.  Sometimes I LET things get me down.  Sometimes I focus on what I don't have, who I'm not and what others are lacking;  that does not bring happiness.  What does bring happiness is being true to yourself; being true to what you believe.  This means striving to live your best life.  It is our best life when our actions are bringing us closer to the things we value and the things be believe.  This is truth.  I have forgotten these things before.  I'm remembering them.  I'm improving myself.  I'm setting dreams and I'm grasping them.  Please join me on this journey of living true and living your best life.